3.03.2010

There's never a right time to say goodbye

I'm up at SFU right now, and since I've done my 5 hours worth of studying for today.. I shall blog! Something that has been on my mind lately.. moving out of this city, and living on my own. I personally am okay with the idea of it, but when it really comes down to the details.. I don't know if I would be so willing to leave Vancouver just yet. I will most probably be leaving this city at the end of this year, after I'm done school, for various reasons. One of them being that I need to spend some time back in Singapore with my grandmas. The other? Work purposes. But over the years, I have grown to love Vancouver. (For those of you who don't know, my family decided we needed a change, and we moved to Vancouver even without visiting the place first. It was either Vancouver or Sydney/Melbourne.) I mean, I was raised here for half my life. Is it weird that I don't really know where to call home? Singapore has always been home, because I was born there after all. However, my current home is in Vancouver. My life is here as of now. It really got me thinking about the living arrangements when I move.. My current room, all my winter clothes, my friends and family.. this beautiful city. I feel like I'm leaving so much behind. Not to say that Singapore doesn't have a lot to offer, because in it's own little way, it does. I don't know if I'm giving up too much, or I should be open to something better. Better opportunities? Maybe. I feel like.. I can't really feel at "home" in Singapore until I get a place of my own. Which probably won't be too soon. I don't know if it makes any sense.. but if I were to take over my cousin's room, and make it my own, it wouldn't really be my "own", because that is not my house to begin with. So when I do move out, and have my own place, then I guess I would feel more settled, and I'm able to call it home. Funny side thought: I was more concerned about tackling household problems (pluming, light fixtures, bugs etc.).. than the idea of living alone haha. Like I said, there are certain factors that will make me stay in Vancouver. But as of right now, I'm still pretty half-hearted about the idea of leaving.

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13 comments:

aaronshlo said...

i'm sure no matter where you go when you move out, you'll learn and grow from the experience. :)

if you'll be elsewhere: never lose touch with us! :)

if you'll be in Vancouver: i'll try help you with whatever househould problems i can. ...out of your three examples, i can take care of bugs. don't trust me with plumbing or lighting.
don't trust a Lo. don't trust me. XD

tessatham said...

@ALO

yeah for sure :) aww your comment so made my day! i will def NOT lose touch with you guys. you guys are the best :`) maybe i'll ask kevin to change the lighting or plumming. he's more of a sciences guy... hahaha. OR i'll call you guys and make you talk to me till it's daylight. (remember the night of paranormal act? LOL.) good times :)

teeheehee said...

omg i can't kill bugs too! that's my major concern about living alone! oh and if someone attempts to break into my place while i'm there...

teeheehee said...

and in singapore, it'll be lizards. omg the trauma

tessatham said...

@Kim
OMG that was my first concern hahahaha. my dad was like

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HAHA.

Serena said...

I totally get what you mean by it won't really feel like "home". It isn't your personal space. I felt the same way when I moved back into my parents' house after graduation. I moved out of MY apartment back into THEIR house. Although I have to admit my parents are pretty lenient. I don't have many rules to follow. Just sucks that I can't have guests over late at night and it doesn't help that I live so far from my friends [in this town.]

Honestly I think there will be big changes whether you stay or go to Singapore. A new life will be awaiting in both places. I think while you're still young, you should travel the world. You can always move back eventually if you don't like the cities you have ventured to. =]
It's scary but isn't life just always full of risks? See if you can move back to Singapore for awhile and if you don't like it move back to Vancouver.

ko0ty said...

I don't think I'd mind moving away from Vancouver if I got a better opportunity somewhere else. I love this beautiful city but it would be nice for a change and a brand new start.

Kym said...

yeah, its always going to be hard to say goodbye! i left vancouver for 9 months to live in cali but when i came back it made me appreciate and realize vancouvers beauty anymore! i can understand why its hard for you to leave... i love this place! hehe!

tessatham said...

@Serena
yeah i really would like my own place, but it wouldn't be wise at the age of 19 haha. i can imagine the bills piling up :( i actually have alot of privacy at home, but it's cus my parents are very chill. pretty much if i tell them where i'm at, they're good. with the changes, i sure hope they're good haha. i'm just going to not like the weather alot! summer 24/7... and i'm going to miss my winter clothes :( yeah i'll probably go for it, or else i'd never know what if.

@Katy
yeah i pretty much want a new start and some changes in my life. i neeed that fast paced lifestyle (singapore).. vancouver's a little too laid back! :P

@Kym
oh wow. but cali is awesome though! but... vancouver is better :) yeah i'll def miss this place tons.. and the shopping!!

cheerilyhappy said...

to bad you didnt go to sydney :(
i am going there this summer :)
bumped into your site by chance... i wish i could enter the contest, but i'm based in europe :(((

tessatham said...

@cheerilyhappy
aww, i was actually debating as to whether i should stay in sydney this dec. cus my cousin lives there and asked me to move in :) you'll love it there though! it's an awesome city as well. it's okay i'm hoping to do an international one next time! thanks for dropping by love :)

xx

grapefruit said...

so you're leaving vancouver for sure? what make you decide on that? we have so many more collaborations ahead of us!!

tessatham said...

@grapefruit
like 80%? haha i gotta talk to cp first!! it's just a lot to leave behind :( yes we do!! we have to get on that :P xx